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To My Mom Starting Chemo Soon, You Got This

Cancer fucked with the wrong woman. It doesn’t know your determination and will to live. It has NO idea the type of warrior it’s up against. 

I am not going to pretend I know what you’re going through physically or mentally. Because I don’t. I do know you have the fight of a lion in you and that you’re ready for war. 

You won’t be alone. Our family will be fighting with you, right by your side. You taught me how to fight and I know I am ready for battle. I will be there every step of the way. 

I know you’re probably scared, fearful and anxious beyond belief. I can’t tell you that it’s going to be okay and it’ll be over in no time because unfortunately, I was not given that type of power in life. If only I could tell you it will be easy breezy but I can’t.

I can tell you that whatever you need, I got you. It doesn’t matter if it’s running to get medication, a certain food or drive across country to see a doctor. I will do it in a heartbeat. 

You’ve been there for me since I was born. It’s my time to take care of you. You are the reason I am who I am today and I’m forever grateful to have your strength and courage. 

If you’re weak, let me carry you. Literally and figuratively! Do not worry or think about things. I can carry all of that. You need every bit of strength to fight this beast. 

I don’t tell you nearly as much as I should how appreciative and grateful I am for everything you have done for me. From helping me financially when I was struggling to the Miami Beach t-shirt you got for me, it NEVER goes unnoticed. 

You’ve been my rock my entire life. Let’s be real here…if I hadn’t had you by my side throughout my life, I would have been totally screwed. I probably would have ended up in another country and not even have realized it! 

It’s time for me to step up and be your rock and shoulder to lean on. It’s the absolute least I can do for the amazing life you have given me. I wish I could take it away from you and deal with it myself, but I can’t so being your rock is the next thing I can do.

Please save your energy for this fight. Forget the drama and other chaos. It’s not worth your precious time or energy. If people or situations you’re in are negatively affecting you, take yourself out of the equation because we don’t have time to waste in being anything but happy and creating memories. 

Mom, you are a fucking rock star. To know and see what you’ve been through and what your about to endure with a smile on your face and head up is admirable and courageous. I can only hope I have half of that strength and courage as I get older. 

Just remember, I am here.You are not alone. The family will fight with you everyday. Cancer doesn’t havea clue the battle it’s up against. Compared to you, cancer is a little bitch. Let’s all say…FUCK YOU CANCER! You’re in for a battle with a pack of lions. You won’t win. 

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